Yesterday I found out that I have a thyroid functioning at level POO! OMG! The nurse stood there reading the results with a look of disgust on her face. WTF!?!?!
Today I'm having mixed emotions about my recent diagnosis... Part of me is totally bummed that I'm not "normal" and will most likely have to be on thyroid medicine for the rest of my life & another part of me is hopeful that this means that once my meds kick in all my hard work & dedication will FINALLY start paying off. My relentless calorie counting. My obsessive exercising & every DIET ever known to man. Which reminds me- apparently THAT is what got me here. My years and years (since I was 14- WHAT?!) of crash diets, fad diets & over training my body... UGH- all this time I thought I was "healthy!" and keeping my body fit. What a disaster.
So now I feel like I'm in limbo. I pretty much wanted to CRY at the gym this morning. (I don't recommend crying at the gym- it scares men!) I don't know what to do now... Continue what I'm doing? Or shoot myself in the face. (If you're new to my blog you'll soon learn I use sarcasm as a defence mechanism. I assure you I will NOT kill myself)... ugh! That's all I can say.
I did go to B&N and purchased Jillian Michael's (The female trainer on the Biggest Loser) new book "MASTER YOUR METABOLISM" in hopes of finding some info/guidance. The first 3 chapters were amazing. I felt like I could have written the book myself. She too was diagnosed with hypothyroidism at age of 30 from years and years of crash diets & over training and struggled with so many of the same emotional issues that I did/do. I really felt like I had found a new bible (sorry Jesus) but then it got really HEAVY. She goes into a tyrant about how toxic everything (and I mean EVERYTHING) is! How all of our food is CRAP and how we should all "go organic" and NEVER touch anything processed or packaged. It's been VERY overwhelming to say the least. And tonight I stood in front of my pantry trying to find anything that didn't contain poo-touse or hydro-by-crapos. Everything is filth. I ultimately decided on a new york steak, mixed broiled veggies, sauteed mushrooms & onions & a big 'ol glass of red wine. I think that's called defeat. Or failure. I don't know.
I'm only about 1/3 of the way through Jillian's master your metabolism & never eat another thing again book so I'll keep you posted on my ultimate review. I will also try & update you more about my progress (hopefully it WILL be progress) with my thyroid meds & constant strive for perfection.
Again- no witty banter to end my post.
Hugs, Amy! You'll make your way through this and find a new normal! At least now you know and can do something about it. I had to laugh at the last half of your post. I ordered 'Skinny Bitch' thinking it was going to be a funny read with tips on how to eat blah, blah, blah and was horrified to discover that it was basically telling me to become a vegetarian and describing slaughterhouses in detail and that chemically processed fake meat and dairy products were what I should be eating!
ReplyDeleteHang in there!
sending you a hug, girl! I have HASHIMOTO's autoimmune low thyroid. But I was sorta happy for the diagnosis, because IT was the reason for my problems ... kwim? But it sucked to have yet ANOTHER disease hanging over my head. Sigh. Do you just have low thyroid or the autoimmune type? A lot of things can help support a normal low thyroid...
ReplyDelete~ avoid fluroide (in water & toothpastes) because it reduces thyroid function
~ Soy also weakens thyroids
~ Iodine supplement (Idoral) helps a weak thyroid too (except in hashimoto's I just found out! wahhhh!)
~ this may go against your doc, but Armour is the better thyroid med because it has both T3 & T4 which helps your thyroid rest a bit and can possibly heal itself eventually. Synthroid only has T3 which the body supposedly converts to T4, but if your body is already messed up, there's a lot of theories that this doesn't happen properly. And there are side effects of synthroid because it is synthetic.
You'll notice your first couple weeks on the meds will help you to get rid of a lot of water weight. I haven't read any recent posts, but if you are still on hcg diet, then your losses will actually do better while on the meds and you won't yo-yo as much.
Hang on.. it isn't the end of the world to have low thyroid because it is possible to be reversed! I'm glad you got the diagnoses, most of us get 'overlooked' because our numbers are 'normal' and then we are looked at as being lazy or whatever they think for being overweight. That's what happened to me.. my numbers were 'normal' so I was never treated until I found a good doc who did the extra tests and found I as right!
Don't be afraid of the new book. It sounds like a good one! Kind of scary, I'm sure to read it all now. But, take the changes one thing at a time or you will become overwhelmed at what you cannot eat. And sometimes, you just have to eat the poison. I've taught my kids about all that frankenfood crap and it has helped too. Although, we still enjoy a bit of formeldahyde (DQ!) and have stopped calling pop a treat because a poison should not be thought of as a treat! It is all about moderation and detoxing your body with fresh, raw foods if & when you eat the crap.
Best of luck & don't let it stress you out too much!